Well, I wrote a post like this last year and I was so hoping that I wouldn't have to write one again.
First, I'm confused. I know a bit about football, I kn ow a lot about management, and I just don't understand. I know that it takes time to gel; I know that we've had some bad calls; I know that we're 'close'... but we just lost #5 and a loss next week pretty well buries us 1/3 of the way into the season. How can this happen again?
Second, I'm angry... but it's a strange and resigned dispassionate anger. Part of me has given up. Yes, I know that there's some hope if we win next week but right now I don't WANT to think about the possibility of winning. To think about it - to hope for it and speculate on it - opens me up to the possibility of getting hurt really badly... AGAIN. Part of me is feeling that if I give up now that the hurt won't be so bad.
Third, I'm cynical. I'm still a fan, I still bleed black and gold, but just like in politics, fashion, or music, there are eras that just turn one off. You hold on until something good comes along. I had high hopes for this era but right now it's starting to look like shag rugs. They looked cool at first but got dirty quickly and soon were a mess.
I still have my season seats, I'm still following the team, but the caring is close to leaking away until the next off-season.
Please Cats- make me sorry that I'll miss next weeks game. Make me care. Please.